Grief — Constant, Devestating Shock

100 Words for 100 Days — Day 10

I was so excited to get to day 10 of this challenge! I remember waking up with an odd sense of satisfaction — “Yes! I made it!”

And then I received some of the worst news. The kind of news that numbs you. A blank, buzzing noise fills your ears.

You try to process. Slowly. But you can’t.

Grief isn’t an overwhelming aura of doom or sadness. It’s a constant, terrible, gut-wrenching surprise. You try to go back to normal, and it’s that horrible sting of surprise at the back of your head, reminding you of your grief over and over and over again. It’s a type of devastating shock.

I don’t think it ever goes away. But maybe, one day, I’ll get used to the pain and shock.

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